Where Is God?

My spiritual journey nowadays is to pursue for God's presence in my life. I should admit that my life right now is in the winter season; lots of things in my life are not going as I planned; and in the midst of this situation, where is God?

I still believe in God, and all of my being acknowledge that God is exist, and Jesus Christ is my true Savior and guarantee my eternal life by giving His life on the cross.
However it seems that I lost the closeness that I once had with God: when every prayer was answered, when life was bubbly and full of optimism, when difficulties felt easy when God's hand was there to strengthen me. But lately; it is hard to feel that way again, or even to pray and feel that it goes to His ears.

One very effective ways for me in this pursue is by reading books. One book that I had been reading titled: God Is Closer than You Think by John Ortberg.
So many good revelations from the book:

           When God himself came to the earth, he came in winter. Jesus, like Job, was known as a "man of sorrws." He was acquainted with grief.
           Where was God? He was on the ash heap. He, like Job, was so torn by suffering that no one recognized him: "We considered him stricken by God, smitten by him, and afflicted." He himself would go through the winter of the absence of God: "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me:"
           On the cross is the ultimate paradox: God experiencing the absence of God so that he can draw close to us in our loss and grief and even in our God-forsakeness......
Never did we see his glory more clearly than when he was on the cross, taking our God-forsakeness on himself. Karl Barth worte of the great miracle that God would rather be the suffering God of a suffering people than the best God of an unblest people.
           If it is winter in your life, and you wonder where God is, you don't have to wonder anymore. He is the God of the ash heap. Jesus was, in a sense, never closer to us than when he was farthest from the Father. Perhaps his suffering is his glory.

 This the new truth that came to my mind. Perhaps all my 'lowly moments' are the chance for me to feel GOD, a chance to sense His glory in the sufferings. I wanna take this chance; I wanna take this journey. I just pray that Lord makes me see HIM in the storm and shadow in my life.
Let me breath through your fresh thin air when I grasp for hope, for love and for life. Let me find You.