A Mile Stone in My Journey

Nov 09, 2011



I am writing this little note as a reminder for myself. For 36 years of my life I feel like I am trying to pursue something.. and it was an affirmation from people around me; people I love; people I admire. However I realize that that kind of journey has no end in itself... There is always people that would not happy or agree with what I do; people who say bad things about me; people who turn me down or the worst is people who ignore me.



I have been drowning so badly in this kind of journey; upset; even angry to God "why such things happened to me...."

I know my heavenly Father has the answer; but He has not given it to me yet... or He has his own way in teaching me about life.

Today I realize that the Father has been doing a good job in my life; all the goods and bads; strengths and weaknesses; all are in me for a purpose... some master plan that He has in his mind... I have no one to be satisfied for except HIM alone.

He puts the desire and longing in my heart; he knits right amount of talents and characters in me --- and the process is still on going.



I love singing... and thank God He reminded me again about it... I don't have the best voice in the world or the most thrilling voice in the universe. But I got voice and also sense to create music with my vocal-cord and my heart. Yeah, I love songs that can touch my soul; a song that can make me smile, make me cry, or make me grateful.



I love cooking... even though I only had a short time to experience my enjoyment in cooking. During my years in USA; cooking does not only help me to cut my expense and help me to be able to enjoy my Asian cuizine Cooking also gives me some sort of peaceful and happiness. To prepare all the ingredients, the steps of boiling, frying.... all is FUN!



I love to LOVE... This part of me is fading... Thank God I still have time to renew it. Some people are so competitive and willing to get what they want even though they have to step on somebody's toe. That's not me... LOVE is more important that WINNING. I think this couple years is the test for my character of loving.



To find back my ingredients of life: music, food, and love --- or Singing, Cooking and, Loving is a start ... but I need my heavenly Father to harmonize those three so that It can be something useful to HIM. Something that the GREAT MANAGER; the BEST MAESTRO would satisfy in to... HE is the only one that I need to bring satisfy to... my dear heavenly Father.



Some decisions need to be done; and I pray and closely asking that Father would lead me...



Thank you Father; I am BACK now....